Have you ever thought….
You really want to be someone that people around you or to
be easier, being your parent proud child among all where they can proudly
talking about you to their friend but it seems like you might be need to
disappoint them a little? (Ya…I know my speech always loonngg….)
I loved when my parent feeling like that toward me… Even
actually, I`m not totally perfect in person but I try my best in saving their
face in any situation as possible (honestly, they never know how deep I am in
Kpop-ing..sshhuu…).
I…..always feel like I am strong without anyone backing up
(except God`s help) and I am always moving on my own including making any
decision in my life. Roughly, I am an independent girl/woman.
It’s a norm that every parent would want their child getting
married, giving them grandchild and so on.. and of course, they have their own way
how to achieve that dream as soon as possible because they also know they might
not have enough time to wait it happen longer, right?
Me….I don’t think I can fulfill that dream of them yet in
these times being, I know what they meant well when they try to hook me up with
someone or try giving me some spark to start walking on “that” way. But still…
I cant…
I still have lots of dreams that I want to achieve and I'm
taking lots of measurement before being able to share my whole life with him
without having a break up in the future. I have seen a lot of couples before
having a break up because of the smallest and childish reason.
Marriage is not something you could take them lightly just
because people keep pressuring you with the norm of others around. Marriage is
about sharing your whole life with your significant other! And, in order to do
that, you need to trust, support, understand, respect each other, and willing to
accept each other in all aspects. When I said “each other”, I really meant for
on both sides. Your interest might differ, but believe me… when you can
honestly accept all of him/her and staying with them, in no time you will be becoming like him/her. People often said, if you meant to be with him/her,
people could see even your face become similar. Hahaha
Till this much measurement already hard to take into
consideration right…..
It is not including outer aspects; Their
appearance…work…lifestyle….diet…wealth….and even health!
Before… If people asking me what will I look into my
significant other quality, I will always said something cliché like good in
religion that can bring me heaven together or can accept and support me in
anything I do.. But now… I felt it was wrong! If I want to get someone good in
religious, why do I need to wait for him in order to be able to go to heaven?
What don’t I try helping myself to be good first, we never knew that even a person that seems like an “ustaz” actually bad in various aspect. And as for
finding someone that can accept and support me…. This statement already WRONG. Why?
Because you need to understand EACH OTHER first, next is to accept EACH OTHER,
then support EACH OTHER, and finally trust EACH OTHER.
So now.. If anyone asks me what kind of man I want to
marry.. I will say…
- Handsome : Because it`s impossible not looking at his look first right…I'm not on pretty either, but at least I am proud with my appearance..hahaha… and as for information, being handsome can be different depend on that person's point of view. Sometimes it's not your look that makes you looked handsome, but you can be handsome with your attitude or manner. The way you speak and your act… how you work… most of all attitude and manner!
- Wealthy/Rich : Sorry to be said.. I`m a realistic person. And I am not someone that could willing want to be poor together and then will work hard together to become rich when we already married. I'm not that kind of person honestly…. If it's referring to phycology help that not includes financial, I would voluntarily give it even without asking. But if financial, I strongly cant help! Why? Because I`m struggling by myself too and can call me selfish, but can I said.. if you really want to share your life with me for a long time, you need to prove me first that willing to change and working hard to become rich in honest work. I believed in these words; there is no one that intelligent/poor, but there is diligent/lazy. If you could prove that with even a stable financial, I might accept it. Don’t be afraid, I am not a kind of gold digger, because I will still want to work and find my own money. I will probably not going to use his money at all because it is his hard earn money, not mine okay...
- Manner: Should I explain more about this……….. It's obvious right… your manner will reflect your act, talk, lifestyle, relationship, and many more. Conman can always pass this aspect tho…hahaha… So we need to be careful.
- Parent: I really want to befriend his parent first before I could 100% accept him. I always said this before; I want to marry my friend`s son..hahahaha
- Protective: It is easy to make me hooked with the main lead of any kdrama or novel, just show me how protective and gentle the male lead is and I will probably hook and melt. Being protective, easy get jealous, a man of action, and not afraid of showing his love even without a word but with act… That kind of man... really is my dream guy…hahaha…. Arm pillow, back-hug, forehead kiss… totally my style…. Ok… better to let the dream become a dream… because I might get hurt if it does not happen..hahaha
The point is..... I might NEVER gonna meet someone like this EVER in my life and I will probably be living my life FOREVER ALONE! hahaha
But still... all of this because I LOVE MYSELF...
